Friendships, relationships- how do you do it?

Caption. Like genuinely, how do you guys still have friends and/or a healthy relationship?

During my first (and very long lasting) depressive episode I’ve managed to push every single one of my friends away. I was misdiagnosed back then, the first SSRI prescribed to me triggered my bipolar almost immediately.

I genuinely don’t feel like making new friends, but I’ve burnt the bridge with my old ones that don’t even know about my diagnosis and that I’m on the right medications now.

I just feel very lost, sorry for ranting and rambling here.