I have a huge fear of having my first kiss in case it isn’t perfect enough

I dont think I’m ever gonna have my first kiss even though I really want to every time I get the chance to I don’t because I have this exact idea of how it’s supposed to look and feel like and it’s so perfect and I don’t want it to be ruined,it genuinely feels like if I have a first kiss I dislike my whole life perception will be ruined I don’t know how to describe it and everyone tells me the first kiss is usually kind of akward bc you’re not sure what to do and i don’t know how to be okay with that like i cant accept that it might not be perfect,I know I’m supposed to accept the uncertainty but even when I try to if I have the chance to kiss someone I never do bc I always hesitate for this exact reason and I think I’m ALWAYS gonna hesitate what do I do