Was my guy best friend in love with me

I was best friends with this guy about 10 years ago but we had a bad falling out. We would hang out almost everyday if not every week before. There were a couple times when we would get drunk a lot and I would stay overnight a lot at his place. There were a few times when we ended up cuddling but that was it, it never turned into anything sexual. We talked about it the next day the first time and I asked him if he had feelings for me because everyone even people he worked with would always tell me he was in love with me. He told me he didn’t and just saw me as a best friend and said he liked our other friend at the time. Tbh I never believed he had feelings for me but now years later, really thinking about it I think he might have? And maybe I think I would’ve been with him if he told me but now I can’t forgive him. It was since 2020 when he basically ghosted me and I was completely devastated and honestly and still am.

It’s a long story but he tried to reach out to me twice since I moved back home. Both times ended bad. First time was in 2021 and we ended up arguing and I just didn’t respond to him. The last time he reached out was in 2024 on IG and it was just the same thing over again. I just couldn’t deal with it anymore so I had to block him for my own good cause I feel he’s going to reach out again and it will be the same. But what’s bothering me is that I keep dreaming of him and him admitting he’s in love with me. I think deep down I repressed my feelings for him but I think now I might have had feelings for him too idk. It’s hard because we were so close and until now I never had a guy best friend like him. Did he ever have any feelings? I know he told me he didn’t but maybe he was lying? Idk I guess I just still feel hurt after all these years since I’ll also never get real closure