Stress is eating me piece by piece, day by day

4mo ago got my PhD
Since then I am stressed each day
my country is at war
have bad communication skills and am 31m and single. everyone says I am young, I am single, I should be ok compared to people with families
but I cant give a damn, I love to have partner and not be this lonely every night and in every decision.

got a post doc with 60k salary in Eindhoven and didn’t get an industry job in The Hague with 55k annual salary, which is really low compared to all my friends with 65K< salaries.

Every week I am doubting this decision. every fucking week.

I know I wont be a professor at TUe and Delft in NL.
I hate changing my living place. cant take it seriously any longer.

The stress is eating me. WTF should I do?
I would end my life if I could right now. only if I had an efficient tool.