[32] [M] Am i gay or bisexual?

In total i have been with a lot of woman, over 25 and ive bottomed atleast 10 times (same 2 people) and ive sucked 6 dicks some BBC included ( 🤤) life changing lol. But i always tell myself that i am not gay. My wife caught me on grinder and i told her it was just to get peoples attention and i wasnt cheating. But i think i might have a bj addiction. But i don't want to be with a guy. Just his dick and balls lol. What do i do? Just keep doing it or stop? Embrace it? I also think being secretive is sexy. Im just a nympho i guess lol i just feel bad for my wife she doesn't kno