Time to let go... 1.5yrs of agony

guess i should let go 

i tried but ur special 

i wept ..alone

i admired. from afar

u smiled i smiled

yet my place is not near

far away from the curls

departed from this world

to my dreams, and sit beside me there

only there can i hold your hand 

how beautiful and miserable

and friday a flood would come to me 

and from me, may this flood extinguish

the burning desire of my heart 

to be loved from this specific flower

and monday may i rise again 

as a bud.