Realizing im a bottom and it's liberating

After exploring prostate play incumbent of the realization, I enjoy anal plane.I've become a lot more open to the idea of bottoming for the right guy.

Coming to this realization has been very liberating , but the problem is it seems like a lot of guys talk , a big game and disappear.

I hate apps but I am seeking a top/daddy dynamic that guides me as my me tor and sexual student?

Is that weird ?

Just wanted some perspective