37M4F Feeling of being wanted

Hey. I guess I’m just coming back here. It’s like the endless loop of trying to find someone that isn’t insecure. Understands that we’re both married and are not looking to change either ones situation, but to make the current one better. I have my reasons as to why I can’t just leave. Shit, I hate that it’s even come to this for me. But I’ve found that this is the only way I can find someone that understands and gets what we are both going through. Living on a house with someone that you’re basically just roommates. I miss the intimacy, the excitement when looking at your phone and it’s you \\\*hopefully\\\*. One of these days I want to stop posting in these forums 😂. But I’m at a stand still. I do want someone long term. Someone that can say more then “yeah”. Reciprocate the vibes, you give bare minimum, I won’t even bother going forward. I sounds like an ass. Which I PROMISE I am not. But I’ve been doing this for way too long. I know this is a lot to read, and if you made it this far at least you care enough to read it 😂.

I am Filipino and Italian, I DO shave my head and I am bald. I keep it that way hahaa
. I live in Cali. I’m a huge nerd. Star wars, the walking dead, The Office, Marvel. I have never gotten sick of listening to EDM, ever since I was a kid, so festivals are my go to. Would I love an in person relationship? Yes, but I am more then ok with it being long distance.