Go buy some balls

Hi there, 29F and my hubby is 33. We were together for almost 3 years. Every other relationships ok naman sa umpisa. So here it is, I got pregnant early on in our relationship. Fast forward, namanhikan sila-we decided to have a church wedding but turned out as a civil wed lol. He's the one who decided or disapproved what we decided during pamamanhikan tho syempre respect din sa napag-usapan, so there, I agreed na lang tutal andun na kami. Early on in our relationship nakita ko na he can't handle even just a little argument, he shutdowns and just choose to hang-out with friends instead, first time non is nung malaki na tummy ko ilang months nakong buntis he always give me a silent treatment instead of looking for solutions in our little arguments. During the preparation of our wedding naman ang kausap ko ay ang mama niya, in deciding our principal sponsors. Bumili kami ng suot niya for the wedding, habang namimili he is asking his mom kung bagay ba niya yung damit instead of me being asked. Simple, yet syempre turned into big deal for me kasi sino ba ako? Fast forward, natapos ang wed namin aware naman ako na nakakapagod ang celebration pero ni yakap buong magdamag at pagkagising wala akong natanggap haha. Then it continued sabi ko sa sarili ko why the bedroom feels so dead? Yet nung bf-gf kami ok naman. Months later it just continued to be like that na kahit yakap wala. Then one time I tried to ask him-- and he admitted that his high sugar level contributed for him to suffer from ED. It's not yet clear to me kung kaya ba ako napregy ng maaga kasi tnry lang niya? Fast forward, in our relationship ganun lang, no sex talks, no bebetime din (accepted ba yun:<). And tuwing nagkakamisunderstandings kami hindi man siya ang kausap ko, mama niya. One time pinakausap niya sakin mama niya dahil may di kami pagkakaunawaan. His mother talked to me at pinagtatanggol anak niya, which is not a role of a midiator. That time napuno ako I backed-out even if I'm aware it's a disrespect. For him I disrespected his mother, pero how about me na wifey niya, he can't even face me and talk about "us." It led him to decide for us to separate, nasa bahay nila kami nun ng anak niya and he just sent a chat saying if we could end then let his mom sent us home. He even unfriended me and my family in socmed then ask me if he could borrow our child. Really? Literally NO balls.