I'm so tired

I'm so profoundly tired and I'm so sad. I'm already depressed, but I'm paralyzed by it. Every move is a struggle and nothing feels good. I'm surrounded my reminders of my worsening mental health, and now, my housing is in jeopardy.

I'm barely keeping it together at best, and I'm not doing a good job of it. I need so much help, and I don't even have someone to talk to about it. I can't even get a therapist because they reject me at intake.

Im aware that I'm horribly broken, and I just need to catch a break. I'm tired. I'm tired of faking it even I'm falling apart and I'd rather be dead than do this anymore. I'm tired of failing.

Please pray for me. My prayers are weak, though my faith is strong. I need help so bad. I'm falling apart