Struggling with feeling distant from God after taking a new job I prayed about.

I want to start out by saying, I am not the perfect Christian. I never have been. Lately, I’ve felt almost like I am falling into the same habits and patterns I fell into before starting my walk with God.

I recently started a new job that I prayed about after the interview. I told God if it was from Him so be it…if it wasn’t from Him so be it as well. I surrendered this job at His feet because only He knows what is good for us and His plans for us are much better than we could ever imagine. Long story short I accepted the job position, was in training for it, and then was told I was going to be working Sunday-Tuesday day shift. This was a massive stab to the gut for me considering Sundays became a day where all the thoughts on my mind could just disappear well I could focus fully on God. After working here for only a short time, I’ve felt almost like I have strayed away from God. I’ve prayed less, I’ve read less scripture, and I’ve fallen into sin more than I wish I had to admit. Now I’m sitting here struggling with the idea that maybe this job isn’t where I need to be. Maybe this job isn’t worth the distance I feel from God. At the same time, if it’s from God then who am I to say it’s not worth staying. I’ve prayed about it and feel like there’s not an answer I’m receiving.

Also for context: These are 3 12 hour shifts and then I have a second job (which I had first) that is pretty much an additional 3 10 or so hour shifts. It’s not like I work 3 days out of the week and just refuse to make time. I work 6 days a week pretty much all day. And I’m actively dealing with the stress and steps after a car accident. I’ve prayed to God about this, asking for his guidance in this and I just don’t know what to do.

So the questions I’m asking is;

• Do I stay at this job and wait for God to give me the guidance I’m asking for?
•Do I leave a really good opportunity job and position because I feel like it hinders my ability to attend church and seek God on a more frequent basis?
• Is it fair to God if I left something at his feet and I received it to only turn around and say I don’t want this because it makes me feel distant from Him?
• Could this be a trial to see how much I’m willing to risk to show how much faith I have in God that He will provide a job that allows me to both provide for my family and still honor him?