Can there be bottom surgery reasoning which won't be swept under internalized misogyny?

I'm seeing lots of various opinions on things and stuff surrounding various parts of transition. However, I hadn't really seen discussions about hrt, surgeries, so on without considering those of trans only issue or sweeping those as specicifically trans issue.

I'm thinking on some surgery to expose other parts of my clitoris, so that not only glans would be available for direct stimulation. That's not a decision that I'm going to make in the near future, but one that I'm thinking on for after a long time away from now (I'm fully fledged 21 y.o. afab).

I'm continuously being dismissed on my wondering because I also feel some other stress/dysphoria which by some reason means that I have internalized misogyny (though I believe misogyny towards oneself would be a better term because those can be hugely different from how a person actually feels about women (as in some cases ofpression where a person judges themselves by standards they don't apply to others), and also because outside of trans discussions it has completely much broader meaning which includes existing appliance of sexism towards others), which, yk, may be or may not be true, who knows.

As an example (started to happen in summer of 2025), as of recently I started feeling dysphoric about wearing clothes that don't make me androgynous or masculine presenting. Not something that's always there, but flairs occasionally (i.e. all few dresses that I own currently). I also 100% have gender schema since very early in my life (like 4-5 y.o., from what I CAN remember), which, of course, has been changing with years as I learned more and more. Didn't think of myself as of certain gender, so more like androgynous-typed with slight leaning towards cross-sex-typed. I'm aego (attraction can be experienced only towards fictional characters) aroace (aego is under umbrella of aroace, I don't experience attraction towards people in real life, on of the reasons is definitely my huge traumas, which maybe cannot be resolved, I dunno). I also experience dysphoria (I wouldn't call it gender dysphoria though) about my vagina and uterus, though it's more because those can be used for violating me and I simply have too much of trust issues that even thinking of using those causes me big stress.

I'm living fine otherwise, as long as I don't revisit thinking about me having those stuff at all, just a bit non-conforming folk, because why the hell is hugging a stranger is so often done towards women and/or by women, I'm too avoidant for that lol. It also doesn't help that I can't even get any access for gender-affirming care because I'm in Russia, so no proper self-discovery under guidance for me:(