This is an unsent letter.

Goodmorning :)

I missed you today. You know vahi, ghar se vaapas college jaana and all, it just feels sad to tell gharpe I'm doing okay and then not cry it out.

Well, mumma was asking about you. Unke saamne toh gusse se bol deta hoon to not ask about you ever again, but mana karta hoon kyuki if I would've spoken about you, I would've sobbed pretty badly.

I am trying to move on,, sachiii! Har cheez karli in an attempt to move on only to realise I've been searching for hints of you everywhere. Kal white flowers dekhe ghoomte hue toh tumhari yaad aayi, aaj train mein baithke the fault in our stars dekhte hue roya tab bhi tumhari yaad hi aayi.

I know I had a chance to get back with you after you came back a few days ago par, I know we are not meant to be for each other. Ek toh ye sab sochne ka avoid kar hi raha tha ki kal aapke liye likhi gayi kitaab khul gayi

Kitna ajeeb hai na? Two strangers meeting out of nowhere only to realise they're childhood sweethearts, only to be strangers again? I guess Past Lives ki movie kuch zyada hi stick around kar gayi

I still have your letter, your hotwheels and the two scrunchies that smell like you. Aur voh cream bhi :)

Sach kahu toh mujhe darr lag raha hai, I am not scared of getting into a relationship, koi acha mila toh maybe idk, who knows chodho. I am scared of forgetting how much I loved you. I am scared of letting you go so easily off my heart.

I wished I could scream and cry and tell you how hurt I used to feel at the end, but I know you're probably out there thinking, 'mein nahi jaungi uske paas ab kyuki I know I wasn't right or maybe because I said this and that'. I wanted to tell you how much you meant to me and how much happy you made me feel.

Well, I don't know where you are but I hope tu khush rahe. I hope you're doing well in your exams and mast so jaaye. Ghar ki haalat toh I know nahi hi hogi achi, par I know you're gonna keep it to you and survive like you always did. I want you to win my sleepyhead. Well, sleepyhead since, I can't call you mine anymore...

Maybe someday we shall meet again...or maybe not? Idk. I hope you're happy wherever your life takes you, and I hope I am happy wherever my life takes me to

Even if tomorrow I find somebody else that I love, I'll never forget you, and if someday I do, may it be my last.

Idk how to end letters when writing to someone who will never receive this so I am gonna end it my way.

Godspeed my little munchkin

Happy birthdays and happy new years and happy goodbyes

This is not an apology, because I know how much I loved you

This is not asking for an apology because I'll always remember how much loved I felt because of you

This is my goodbye :)