preggy thoughts

Hi guys, ngayon lang ako mag susulat sa AJ. So bale I am currently 3 months pregnant sa fiancee ko and almost 10 years na kami together.

I want to have sex with him almost everyday pero di ko kaya kasi nag ccramps ako (not because of the sex) so we were advised not to have sex muna.

Dati nung 2023, meron kaming ginawa sa island na naghanap kami ng someone to fuck pero separately. so siya pumunta sa hotel ng girl tas ako pinuntahan ng lalaki sa hotel namin. but hindi nya kinaya kasi di daw siya tinitigasan sa babae, ako iniisip nya… ending pumunta siya sakin so nag threesome na lang kami kasama nung guy. our 1st and only experience with other person ha (ganon kami ka loyal ng jowa ko), syempre 1st threesome din.

now, i am having pregnancy thoughts na since we can’t have sex, i want him to have sex sa ibang babae while i watch him fuck her like i railed nya talaga yung babae ganon and i will just touch myself. so ang question ko dito is should i give it a try? tatakot lang ako na baka matuwa siya at gawin na behind my back but hindi naman siya ganon pero kasi wala overthinker lang ahahahha pero ako naman after bora di na ako nag ganon eversince so baka ganon din siya?? what do u guys think?

also kasi ayaw ko naman na kung kailan kasal na kami and may anak na saka siya mag hahanap ng ibang putahe so okay na din na alam ko diba? but yes i will not weaponize this against him like how he did not use our island experience against me.