18 M4F New York || SNCA

I'm 18, about 5'11"-6'0", around 145 lbs, my eyes are dark brown and my hair is black, I'm from New York but you can be from anywhere

Now that you've decided whether it's worth your time to keep reading or not based on those traits, I'll talk a bit about myself. I'm a chud so I like dark humor, nothing is off limits to joke about with me. The thing I'm most autistic about is history, I enjoy learning about all time periods and places. In that vein, I also play a lot of history-oriented games, Crusader Kings, Europa Universalis, Total War, Civilization, Mount and Blade, Hearts of Iron, Kingdom Come Deliverance, all games I enjoy playing. Besides those, I'm also into Metal Gear, Fallout, Helldivers 2, Stellaris, Suzerain, Valheim and more, Some games I've got in the backlog that I want to play soon: Skyrim, Witcher 3, Elden Ring. If I were asked what my favorite film is, I'd say Kingdom of Heaven, and if I were asked what my favorite show is, I'd say HBO's Rome. I do also enjoy reading from time to time but I'm mostly read up on history, though I would like to diversify to reading novels like LotR or ASoIaF, and on philosophy. I also like worldbuilding. It might not seem like a lot, but all of it keeps me pretty busy. If we share some interests but you want to yap about something else, that's fine by me, as long as it's something intriguing. I'm not religious, but I have no problem if you are, who knows, maybe you can convert me.

As for things I'm looking for, I'd say true, unconditional, equal, completely trusting and devoted love for each other is at the top of that list, and it's all I've ever wanted my entire life, to no avail though. But if you're a dude who wants to be friends and play some vidya together, you can also reach out. And as for my preferences, I do like taller women, ideally around my height or above. I'd also prefer someone older than me, whether you're a month older or thirty years older, makes no difference to me, I prefer it all the same. I'm also very attracted to intelligence, so the smarter you are, the better. I have absolutely zero dating experience, go figure. I'd prefer if you're in the same boat, though, I don't mind if you've e-dated before or whatever. Sifting through coal, brimstone and shallow normies for so long in search of a kindred spirit has been exhausting, so if I sound like somebody you'd be able to form a genuine connection with, please send me a DM. I've spent an inordinate amount of time longing for you, thinking of you, and trying to find you. I feel like it's completely hopeless, I've wasted too much of my life on this fruitless search for my "soulmate", wasted too much time ruminating on her. What if "she" doesn't exist? What if it was all for nothing? What if I lived all these years for nothing? If it were possible to manifest something into reality just through sheer force of will, I would be by her side already. How many more shots in the dark do I need to take? I know the math isn't in my favor, just thinking about the probability of you actually existing and actually desiring me as much as I desire you makes me wish I were never born. Anyways, enough of that, I'll probably keep reposting this till the day I die, GG. Did I ever tell you the definition of insanity?