How do I lose weight but not hate myself during the journey

Hello! I'm F19 I am 5'4-5'5 and 185 pounds, I have so much trouble balancing wanting to lose weight and count calories and being able to love myself while I do it, every time I try to lose weight I end up slowly skipping meals and having thoughts about how bad my body is, yes I'm in therapy,

Another thing I want to ask is how do I stay motivated and make a good work out/meal plan that will actually be easy to stick to?