Grocery store sushi. California roll with avocado on top. It’s better than grocery store sushi should be. I only ate half of it. 

Tonight I am sitting here packing up my life. I have been with my fiancé for 8 years and 7 months. And tonight I am packing up my half of the life we built so I can move out. Things have been rough for a few months now. I’ve noticed him pulling away from me. I have tried to talk to him. I have tried to give him space. I have tried everything I can think of. But he still said he can’t keep doing this. He says he still loves me and doesn’t want to lose me but it would be better if we didn’t live together anymore. He can’t stand my family. He has said he doesn’t know himself and he needs to find himself. He said he can’t give me the future we had planned together. I’m pretty sure he broke up with me but didn’t outright say it. 

I am so extremely heart broken. I haven’t been able to properly eat in weeks. I’ve been in so much pain I cry almost every day. I thought we were happy together. I love him… but it’ll be better… I can’t keep feeling this way. It’s not healthy. I just wish this wasn’t happening at all. 

Also packing sucks so much. 

I have been expecting this but it still hurts