How to move forward and heal

I’m looking for honest advice from people who have been through something similar.

A couple of months ago, my landlord moved his two adult Presa Canarios from his farm to the property where I live. They had spent their lives on a farm, had been bred there, and were accustomed to chasing wildlife. Our home, however, has several cats and a 94-year-old resident.

I was uncomfortable with the idea from the beginning and said I didn’t think it was a good fit. Unfortunately, one of my cats got into the dogs’ enclosure and was killed. Another cat had previously escaped by climbing high into a tree, but this time there wasn’t a second chance.

My cat has been in the freezer for about two months because I haven’t been able to move forward. Part of me wonders if I should have a veterinary necropsy (animal autopsy) done before cremation to determine the cause of death and preserve evidence in case another pet is hurt. Another part of me wonders if holding on is preventing me from healing.

The dogs are still here, and there are still cats living on the property. That makes it difficult to find closure because the situation hasn’t changed.

I’m not looking for arguments about dog breeds or people taking sides. I’m looking for advice from anyone who has experienced the loss of a pet under difficult circumstances.

If you were in my position:

* Would you have a necropsy done before cremation?
* Or would you let go, cremate your pet, and focus on healing?
* How did you find peace when you felt responsible or when the danger still existed?

Thank you for reading