first time here, nine months sober. When does it get easier?

I'd been addicted from 2021 to 2025. The only reason I quit was because I was getting put on a new medication by my pain specialist and he drug tests me. I still crave it every damn day.
I was using multiple times a day, multiple days a week. I was using it to keep myself feeling save when I lived with a violent and destructive person. Then when she moved out it was just habit habit habit. Now I can't even do my estrogen shot without thinking of what else could be in that needle.

When does it get easier? A year? Two? Will I ever be able to go to parties where it's at without thinking about it the whole damn time I'm there?