I need help with a decision…!

I’ve always loved the idea of a tattoo but at now 40 years old, I have none. Always found inspo, pinned it on Pinterest, and that was about it.

Now, I lost my mum in March, and in May, I found a tattoo I really liked that was very me, but that I could include a flower in that she loved.

Now, this was before going to Download festival, that I’d have loved to have it for, but the first availability back in May was for this coming Friday in August.

I always forewarned the designer that I am trying to get pregnant so may have to cancel. My period is due Thursday, and every early test I’m doing is “not pregnant” so I feel like that’s not a concern — but I find myself no longer feeling excited about the appointment.

And now I’m like, is that the sign I’m not bothered enough about the tattoo? Or am I just getting cold feet? If I don’t go for it, will I later regret it?