basically the title. 18f and got “employed” for the first time. i was excited too cuz there was no fail or pass qualifications, so u don’t even gotta worry if ur gonna pass the training session or not. first day we just stood there cuz it was mostly listening to instructions instead of hands-on stuff. stood there abt an hr and got super dizzy outta nowhere so ofc i told em and they sat me down and went on w the session. honestly i was fine after a bit but they INSISTED i go home (understandable cuz if i was them i wouldnt wanna take any risks either 😭) BUT BRO. APPARENTLY ITS COMPANY POLICY THAT U GOTTA BE THERE ALL 3 FULL DAYS (which again, understandable, BUT UGHH) SO I COULDNT GO TO THE SECOND TRAINING SESSION EVEN THO I ONLY MISSED LIKE 3/4 OF THE FIRST TRAINING SESSION GOD I HATE MYSELF RN WHY DID MY BODY DECIDE TO DO THAT 😭😭 they told me they’d contact me again after like a week and they still haven’t yet. i also literally straight up asked if i was still employed and whether i could go back and WHEN i could go back if i can AFTER ME AND BOSS LADY WERE HAVING AN ACTIVE CONVERSATION. BUT THE MOMENT I ASKED THAT SHE TYPED FOR LIKE 5 SECONDS, STOPPED TYPING, AND JUST GHOSTED ME???? IM DEFINITELY SO FUCKING COOKED istg im ONLY lucky when i DONT NEED to be but when i NEED to be lucky im super fucking UNlucky 🫩

anyways went to urgent care after that to check out why TF my body decided to just do that and so they checked my vitals and took a blood sample. everything was PERFECTLY NORMAL INCLUDING MY HEMOGLOBIN LEVELS so low blood sugar, low blood pressure, anemia, etc etc is off the table. and thennnn they transferred me to the er (i don’t think it was an actual ER, the board thingy in front of some hospitals said ED. not sure what the diff is tho). so then we go to the er, they take my vitals again, AND AGAIN EVERYTHING IS NORMAL. they did some physical procedures too and apparently also completely normal. I WENT TO THE ER JUST TO GET MY EARS CLEANED OUT AND I STILL DUNNO WTF IS WRONG W ME 😭😭😭 

anyways tldr: im fucked and back to being an unemployed chud thanks for coming to my rant will prolly delete later cuz this is embarrassing asf 🤡

finally FINALLY GOT EMPLOYED, went to the training session, AND RUINED IT BY ALMOST FUCKING PASSING OUT OUTTA NOWHERE?? and then ended up in the ER and they couldn’t figure out what was wrong