Idk how to feel kinda down

Assesment is soon and im still nervous more so because these patterns have been a thing since i was a kid it wasnt like one of those things where i see an asd tiktok and immediately assume if that makes sense

And also because im asian and have an asian family i feel like they dont understand? "You're normal nothings wrong with you" im i supposed to look a certain way? What does that mean?

It has made me doubt myself honestly at this point im kind of lost and idk what to do or what to think