What to do in my situation!

Spending most nights, and days thinking about what to do about the situation i am in. I believe that the woman i am very interested in isnt as interested as i am.... tell me truthfully when you read my side of the story. I spend most days with her being on my mind as a constant, not like every now and then but constantly. when i do stuff i think to myself weather or not she would agree with me doing it and most of the time i dont really do anything because i dont want to wreck what we have going! she is the woman that i see myself having a future with and the way i feel about her is something that is out of a fairytale, i remember being younger and being asked what im looking for in a woman and she literally checks every box that i said! i just dont feel like the feelings are going both ways, she says that she feels the same way about me but at the end of the day, shes barely talking to me, she does stuff that she knows i dont really agree with, and shes even told me that i need to tell her not to do it if i dont like it but we arent in a relationship so for me to be that controlling without her actually being mine, im not that type of man to control somebody like that especially if i trust them.... she has my 100% trust like theres not one person i trust more than her because since weve first started talking shes never giving me any doubts or any reasons to not trust her! i just feel like im always putting in effort and doing the most just to get her attention, and even just begging for her to spend more time with me.... she works over nights so i understand wanting to sleep most of the day but its starting to get hard for me to always try.... shes worth it but like i said the feelings arent both ways atleast the way i want them to be, im going on my second month of being sober and everytime i feel like she doesnt care it makes me want to fall back into drinking but i dont want to fall back to drinking, i want to start a new chapter in my life where drinking is the one thing that i dont want to be apart of it! but when i dont drink to get ride of these feelings i have i swear i get a pain in my chest and feel so lost and confused! i dont want to downplay this woman and make her seem like a bad person because shes definetly not a bad person, she is actually such a sweet, amazing, and beautiful kind hearted woman! i guess im just expecting to much when we arent dating..... see im the type of man that doesnt like to play games, i prefer to either put 100% into something or nothing because theres no reason to have 1 foot in and 1 foot out, but right now shes going thru some stuff so im trying my hardest to be understanding but its starting to take a mental toll on me! like do i let her fix her ways of thinking and just be there for her as a friend, do i try to keep what we have going and wait, or do i just let her focus on herself and keep my distance? i just feel like this chest pain is starting to get overwhelming to the point where i get dizzy sometimes by overthinking about everything.... please give me some advice, i feel so alone, usually id fall to my bestfriend and ask for advice from him but i dont have him anymore he passed away, so if i could have someone her pretend to be a friend to me and give me the advice i need before i end up driving myself crazy!