Asking help🤕

Hello

I need help, I don't like going to a counselor and when I ask my mother for help on this issue, she says it's too early, don't think about it or jokingly rejects it, I can't stop thinking about it, it's been on my mind day and night for three years, it was before but not to this extent

I haven't finished school yet, I don't have any specific goals for my future, I just know that I'm an ambitious person, I know that some of my fantasies are far from expectations but I still love them and give them wings, I've been doing this for as long as I can remember, sometimes it feels like it's coming true and it makes me sad, but then again after a while I say maybe it will happen and I keep going.

Big dreams; but I don't know what I really want, I don't know what career to choose, I just want success, money and influence to have a wonderful life.And of course I have to make an effort for it from now on, but I don't have the opportunity to do anything, not to be able to work and save, and not even to plan and try.

What skills should I learn? I don't know my interests well, I jump from one branch to another and I don't have patience, and I know that this is not good.

I'm not very social, and I don't want fame.

I would really appreciate your help, I wasn't sure if I should upload this message or not