recovery and advice for binging and purging

i am actually so sick and tired of myself. every single time when i feel like i have control of myself, i’ll start binging and purging again. i’ve been clinically diagnosed with depression and have been on fluoxetine for almost a year now. the whole body image thing, calories thing has been one of the main cause to be depression. i recently told my psychiatrist about the problem i have been facing before i was diagnosed with depression and he asked me to consider being referred to a psychologist.

i would more than happy to be referred to a psychologist because i do want to get better. this whole thing has been stressing my mother out and i dont want to burden more. however, seeing a psychologist is extremely costly. what if i dot get better?

its extremely exhausting to keep trying and failing again and again.
i do want to stop this body image thing
i do want to have control over myself around food

please drop some advice guys