Everything is falling apart

It feels like everyone hates me my life feels like there isn't any meaning. I've struggled with anxiety and panic attacks and nothing works I can't go outside because of fear of a panic attack so I'm locked in my house with no job and living with my parents. Sometimes I would hit myself because I blame myself for everything, because I've always been the one to blame. Not to mention my sleep schedule I can't even sleep because my mind cannot stop working.

Sometimes I feel like I don't want to be around anymore.