I need amnesia

Amnesia is about the only thing that will cure me of this disease called love. I made the mistake of looking at his new girls social and guess what I find. A pic of them smiling together on a date. Something he has NEVER done. His anxiety would never allow him to. Or so he would always say. I would always accommodate his sudden change in plans due to his anxiety so what is it about this new younger girl that makes her so fucking special????? Fuck. I’m back to square one and I want it to stop. I don’t want these feelings for him anymore. I want to be numb. I wish I never met him. But continue to love him. I can’t