Double Depression

hey everyone. I have both PDD AND MDD also known as 'double depression.' I was wondering if anyone else with DD could share their experiences with it and anything they've found that helps them in their everyday life. I feel like I've lost myself. The MDD episodes kill me. I hate the fluctuations between the two and never knowing what state I'll wake up in each day. Any advice or even just hearing from someone else who is experiencing this would help me feel less alone. If you are in this same position though, I'm sending virtual hugs because I realise it's truly hard. Any type of depression is 🫂

Thank you x