I've written a song for you

Hi D,

I've written a song for you. One day I'll send it or you may hear it if I get my shit together and distribute online. I hope you'll like it. I've been writing lots of lyrics lately. You have helped inspire me through my own personal grief. Thank you beautiful x

I have read letters here which I am using to guide myself now. From what I see, I think I finally get where you are currently at- at least with us.

It feels like possibly you wanted to vent rather than communicate directly or see me. I just needed to know that and I think I know now? You're processing everything and you have people who you can talk to here. Everyone is different and you were always much more into social media communication than I.

I know we spoke briefly here last night and thank you- I was so fuckin excited to hear from you. My god I would love to see you in person but I understand now you don't want that.

I apologise that I initially misread letters that were for others and thought they were for me. Please know, that I was unaware of these connections until recently and have never been in this scenario before.

To anyone else trying to get involved in MY experience with D**, I can guarantee i have no interest in drama, let alone 'competing' with anyone else. If I am not 'chosen', that's life- D can choose who he pleases- it's his life and like all of us, he deserves to be happy.

D- I wanted everything with you too and do not judge your new experiences. I did think it would have been healing to see one another as how much can be discussed via a computer sceen. Of course, I wish we could hang, talk and touch- and be up for hours with each other.

But I do also understand if you don't want to.

I may post reflections sporadically

I know I'll see you one-day beautiful boy.

I love you and wont block you.

Plz reach out if you ever need to talk to someone

With my love,

E

Xxxx