My story of trying to kill myself 4 times

So let's not make it longer

I did try before to end me 4 times and every time something happens and give me another chance

But this time I can feel I will do it again

And the hard part I don't want to do it but I think about it and I don't know how to fight it

I was in a relationship and I did lie to my woman about my word

I work in some classifieds filled and it's impossible to tell her before asking for permission from my supervisor

And the moment I did tell her she didn't appreciate the sacrifices I did make for my country and my people

She didn't see the good I did everything she did see is my bad only bad I don't understand why

I have PTSD of stuff I did see and do

I am bipolar and I did try to heal me

But shit is not under my control and I am losing my mind day after day

I just want to tell everyone and her

I hope you find some peace of mind in this life

And be happy

I'm out