OVERAMPED AGAIN CAUSE I'M STUPID

Hello people of reddit I overamped once again and am tripping balls my face won't stop twitching and my eardrum is twitching , it kind of feels like it's grinding into my skull every time i hear a noise. I get muscle cramps everywhere and sharp pains all on my chest back and arms. LK wish this shit would just kill me. I always do this to myself i know i shouldn't have taken this much but i did. Granted i just got this new stuff and didn't realize how good it was it kind of tastes like gasoline and has me instantly start talking to anyone around me. My dick having a hard time getting hard in the middle my shit look like a pair of num-chuks. Having a hard time breathing as well my heart booming. Why do I do this to myself over and over and over? Also i think my HG who gave me a ride home just now trying to purposely fuck with me and make my anxiety worse so i fumble the bag, I told her I got an iron tight grip on that shit and she can pry it from my cold dead hands. I swear every one on this shit is a fucking dirt bag i like why can't you just be cool and take care of yourself like a fucking adult?