would you do me

so I had a thought of what it might feel like to become pregnant from a casual hookup—the unsettled feeling of not knowing who the father is, and the quiet weight of carrying a child that started with one fleeting night. I know it’s not a thought most people talk about, yet it can settle in with a surprising intensity, especially in the still moments when I’m alone and more aware of my body. At 19, I keep feeling this steady pull toward something different or more lasting, and it hasn’t loosened its hold. It leaves me wondering whether anyone else carries thoughts like these, or if they’re just something that lives quietly in me.