I just want all this to end

The loneliness and the self hatred, the constant harming myself just to cope. All alone feeling like my mind is a prison I’ll never escape from. Being a failure as not just a son, a brother, a grandson etc but being a failure as a person. Hating how I look and hating how this’ll probably be me the rest of the time I have here. I’d give anything to not having to suffer being sad everyday and having not a soul here who understands the hell being alive is like everyday. I don’t ask for much in this life but give me peace cause this is my life forever and I’m tired of surviving and not living…