M**** if you’re here, I think we’re over now

We had a deal to wait for one another right? It’s still a year till we would be able to be together. I know you’re struggling at the moment, but I do too. I miss you. And I’m hurt because of that dumb movie you watched. Remember you asked me to go watch it. And I thought you’d at least ask me to come, but you didn’t. And then you tell me that you’re „busy“ with family stuff?
I get that. But no one is that busy, even if it’s family. Because don’t tell me you love me if you can go silent for hours & be dry asf. You know you can always talk to me when somethings bothering you, but you just let me fall off the cliff. So I believe you don’t trust me enough, not like I trust you. I told you so much about myself, about my pain & my mom. I don’t tell that everyone. I used to believe you weren’t like the other guys. I do still. But why did u just go silent, ghosting me? Just because I said that I’d take a step back but that I’d be still there for you if you wanna talk?
I took this step back because I don’t wanna be hurt by being ghosted, given late and dry reply’s. It may be selfish but you knew exactly that being ghosted would hurt me. I know you pull away and deal with stuff on your own but goddam. I want a future with you. You can’t just leave me hanging. I love you why don’t you get it. Do you think this is a game to me? And why even did you let me go if you have feelings too?
I don’t know that to think but I’m honestly not suprised. It’s okay.