Help me with my dilemma 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

I can't decide if should continue with the path of being a clinical instructor or mag hanap nang maapplyan as staff nurse. Naooverwhelm ako sa task work and feel ko wala akong lakas para ituloy, its been months since I've quit my job as a staff nurse and nag eexpect na parents ko and those everyone around me na na magcliclinical instructor ako. Feel ko talaga di ko siya passion 🥲 (ps. hired na ako sa isang university pero wala pa naman contract na nasisign so may time pa me mag back out before start ng classes)