PARENTSSS AND THEIR OBSESSION WITH MARKS

See I love my parents okay but i genuinely feel trapped like i started preparing for neet and my coaching is known for hard tests but my dad is obsessed with mock ke marks and behaaves as if mock ke marks are my neet ke marks like my happiness and freedom lies around my mock marks so during my full syllabus test i started lying really bas like i used to get 400 marks and straight up say that i got 600 or 615 bla bla bla during reneet cause during neet i couldnt stand his scolding so i straight up told him NOT TO ASK MY MARKS but he interpreted as DONT TALK TO ME IDK how but ya so during neet he like started giving short replies and basically did not talk my mom and him were also having a fight and again cold treatment after neet i has scored near 600 despite geeting like 360 or 450 in my mocks and then we all talked and sorted out things and during reneet he thought that he should also take part in the process so he used to ask my marks to ANALYSE no it was another way to scold me so i started lying and then fucked up reneet completely now during my drop(my parents are fine with 1 drop) I am in pw now and every sunday same fucking shit like i said i skipped 2 question overall and he got so mad saying ek chapter ke hi to saawal hain and all and i cant stand scolding and all he says we are so good as parents but no ye bachpan se hota hain i have gotten panic attacks bachpan mein cause marks acche nahi the like i mean 72 out of 80 aaye to 8 marks kahan gaye wala shit every sunday same shit to abhi pw ke test mein mein honeslt 650 ke upar hi score karti hun but that cant satisfy my dad right so i analyse my mistakes and reattempt the test again and vo wale scores bata deti hun cause i cant listen to his scoldings again and abhi ek mein 705 aaye usme hi 15MARKS KIDHAR GAYE LEVEL KAISA HAIN TEST KA I HATE THIS KYA KARU MAIN KOI PLS BATAO MUJHE HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO ATTEND TOUGH TESTS IF MY PARENTS ARE LIKE THIS