Bffs doesn't exist....

I think I’m slowly realizing that someone can still call you their best friend without actually feeling like your best friend anymore.

I met this person during boards and we used to talk A LOT. We were genuinely so close and I really considered him my bff. But after boards ended, he got busy, started a new school, made new friends, and obviously life changed.

We still text every single day, but it’s mostly just hi/hello, random updates, etc. The actual closeness isn't there anymore. I’m usually the one telling him about my day or random things that happened, and sometimes I just sit there wondering if I’m still his best friend or if he just calls me that because it sounds nice.

And the weirdest part is... I don't even think I’m angry at him. I just wish he’d tell me honestly how he sees our friendship. If I’m not his bff anymore, then okay. I can accept that. I just don't want to hold onto a friendship in my head that doesn't really exist the same way for him.

Maybe I’m overthinking everything. Maybe he genuinely still considers me his best friend and just has a different way of showing it. I honestly don't know.

I just miss the kind of friendship where you don't have to wonder whether you're actually important to the other person. :/

ChatGPT helped me put this whole mess of feelings into words 😭

I just wanted someone w whome i can share all my feelings... With whome i can talk to abt anything.. Who could just encourage me.. Uplift me.. Listen to my problems.. Even if they aren't real..

Yk i typically want a best frnd.. Guess I’m not gonna find a BFF for the next seven lifetimes 😭...