Lavender Marriages

I’ve been thinking about options for my future and realizing that raising children is one of the things I want to do with the rest of my life. However, this is an impossibility in our culture when you are gay. And even living in the West and being “out” to select family and friends doesn’t make it easier enough to want to try this with a same-sex partner. I have been thinking more and more about lavender marriage or marriage of convenience in hopes that I can meet someone willing to embark on a co-parenting journey with me. My primary question is how to go about seeking this arrangement in Jordan. As a secondary issue, since I am already asking about this, I might as well let you all know that I’m 41, Christian, well-to-do, fit, willing to provide financially with a life in the West for a lavender partner who is also looking to become a parent.