i texted my sps ex

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idk I was feeling sad, so I requested this girl thinking she wasn't anyone, js someone he used to follow, even when I had suspicions this was his ex 7 months ago he lied and told me no. her highlight literally had a song cover, which he made his profile pic on his fake acc. the fake acc he specifically made for that bitch. so i asked her if she was ..... and she said yeah. ik none of this matters because it's in the past, but it hurts. he would rub her on my face, say she was better than me, show off the fact he missed her a lot in the past, made edits of her, etc. I feel so stupid. im persisting, but it's getting to the point where I js feel bad . it's also stupif bcs my ego wants to gaslight ne that I'm uglier than her. she is pretty okay, fair enough but so am I. I can't stop thinking about her based on what my sp said abt her even tho that shit doesn't matter. I js can't stop thinking about how pretty and cool she was even tho im both of those the 3d and 4d. I js can't shake off what he said. like about that girl? really? idk I js made this post because it's consuming me she won't get out of my head, and my self-concept was improving me. ima js get dressed up tn to make me feel better. it's not fair. she's js some random, bro. he kept rubbing in the memories he had w her how he needed someone like taht. thinking about it is js making me overwhelmed. this isn't fair.