Not sure where to go from here

I've been going back and forth to the Dr for about 6 months now. We've tried Adderall xr which worked great but raised my blood pressure, we tried strattera which made me so nauseous everyday to the point I couldn't take it anymore, and we tried Wellbutrin which did give me energy but did nothing for my adhd. Last time my Dr said we could try another stimulant but today she said "it's not worth it" and there was nothing else she could do besides recommend some books. It's funny that she thinks I have the focus to read a book lol.

Anyway this is all really disheartening because I have wasted time and money for my life to actually feel worst than before I had Adderall. I wish I never took the Adderall in the first place because that was the first time in my life I had a quiet mind and felt normal. To know I'll never feel that way again is very depressing and I'm not sure what to do now. I was already at my wits end when I started going to her in the first place and now to hear her say that's it there's nothing more she can do for me makes me really feel like that's it. My life will always be a mess no matter how hard I try and my only choice is to suffer through it. Also I have tried therapy before and all their tips and tricks are nice but I can never stick with them. I'm not really sure what I'm asking here but I don't know what to do and I can't live like this forever. I feel like I'll be chasing a silent mind for the rest of my life and no one cares.