I hate work so much I keep calling out

Look. They’re not gonna fire me. Not yet anyway. I’m a corporate consultant, except I’m really not. I’m sort of a fucking genius and shit and that’s pretty cool. I graduated college but I have enough relevant work experience and qualifications that I’m technically considered as a senior in my field so I have a senior position alongside other senior coworkers on my team. I’m the youngest, 23, and some of them are like 40’s and 50’s. They like me! I’m likable tbh, and I act 40-50 anyway. They do not like that I’m the same age as them making the same salary. I took this job cuz I needed money and I was curious, they had to claw tooth and nail to get this job. They wanna get married to this place (our contracts are only for 6 months) meanwhile I wanna leave so bad. I’ve called out like a million times already. My boss and I are tight but she hates when I call out. I try to only call out on our non-busy days but fuck. I hate this job. I’m so depressed.

I just feel offended being in this job, I chose this but none of my other offers were in my field. I’m a nationally ranked hacker who keeps getting rejection letters for cybersecurity jobs. The pay for this job is good for what it is but also low considering they only hired us to do bs work that nobody else wants to do. Every day I work here is another day I’m miserable. I’m probably gonna get fired sooner or later. But I also know they’re really not allowed to fire any of the consultants. I know cuz my manager hates one of the guys so much she keeps him in the basement all day. Doing what? Nothing. He just sits there and occasionally talks to the building staff. She just really hates that man. If anyone is going it’s him first. Then I know I can’t fuck around.

I do make good use of my time. Whenever I call out I study like a crazy person. I’m trying to look even better on paper so literally any company with a decent paying cyber security role will take me. I wish I was more of a functioning fucking adult. I wish I could suck it up and just go into work instead of being such a crybaby tantrum throwing bratty bitch. I hate it there. It’s so fucking far from home. And I hate it. Why do I have to go so far from home to a job I don’t want, where I’m on my feet all day meanwhile I have mobility issues 💀 and they don’t even pay me enough to suck it up! God I’m such a jackass