Been watching NL YouTube for a year and listened to Librarians outros for the first time

I mostly watch the main channel or skip the credit outros on Librarians videos. I let three while thing play and was like oh cool that's Ants Marching by Dave Matthews. Then I heard "who's got their cock in you my friend." How did I go an entire year not knowing about all of NLs gay songdom? Then I joined this reddit and half the posts are just gay song lyrics. I didn't realize how integral it was to his lore. I feel awakened yet confused now