"Although my lips are blue"

For context my ex gf wrote this on her insta bio , we already broke up 6-7 months before but she still try to contact me to get back together but I clearly don't want her , told her this too (she treated me bad)

Don't ask me why am I stalking her 🥀

Ik I shouldn't be , but yes I'll stop it sooner , for now I want to feel all hurt and wtv man 🥀

I searched the meaning of this line and got two references -

1. she is Lebanese now like crushing on a girl

2. she miss me etc etc

I care about her somehow(which I shouldn't) but I don't want her , enlighten me on this too 🥀🥀🥀

how to manage this situation