Struggling for the past couple of days.

too put it bluntly I have been struggling for the past couple of days. I though achieving six months, the longest I have been sober for would mean that it is more in the past but recently and more than ever, I have been struggling with it.

My best guess is that I have recently moved back home from uni with my parents and the underlying stress of finding a post grad job and completing my dissertation, but for whatever reason I have been essentially recreating porn videos I used to watch in my head, and the wild part about it, I remember not even really being a fan of those porn videos, as it was extremely rough. But now, its like ive been fetishing them in my head, its a really really odd experience

This morning, was honestly the nearest I had to giving into it. I woke up, basically recreating those videos in my head and had to basically take a breather and stop myself. Was a really odd experience to be blunt and made me feel uncomfortable.

I think this evening I need to make sure that I dont have any technology that allows me to easily access the internet on, as that worked really well for me in the past.

Also, just out of curiosity, anyone else struggle at the 6 month ish mark? I did some research online and apparently at the 6 ish month mark is when your dopamine receptors essentially "reset themselves" (if that makes sense), I could be misremembering what I read, but curious nonetheless.