Disappointed in myself

I told myself I was going to be sober and I was for 2 weeks but I went to a party and then bar hopping with friends and really wanted to drink because everyone else was. I ended up blacking out like 2 hours in and now my friends are upset with me for ruining their nights & having to take care of me.

I keep consistently having problems with binge drinking and not being able to limit myself. It just sucks that I can’t be a causal drinker like all of my friends.. Think I may need to avoid bars and parties while I get sober because it’s just too tempting for me. Feeling very discouraged and sad today.