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Hey everyone I hope y'all doing great!

I am a 24yo female and I am here for help. This year have been the toughest and I really can't figure out what to do next so brothers and sisters please help.

Home isn't home anymore. As an eldest daughter I had a shitty relationship with my mother when I was a child and that's ruining my life rn. I miss self confidence, affection and UK .... To keep it short now that m an adult responsabilities have grown. I am currently working as an English tutor in an academy and I am doing it for the sake of distraction and money ofc. Recently I have been mistreated at work ignored when I asked for rescheduling cuz I ain't working at 2.30 in this heat. Got lied to and when I got a chance to work the mornings they immediately gave my class to another teacher when he asked. I was so angry and felt disrespected cuz nobody asked for my pov from the very start. I never liked this work but mother kept pushing me cuz I had no other chance. This week my dad broke my heart so bad I couldn't eat for days and this work thing came up and I can't tell if m actually right or wrong. I talked to my mother about it and she said "rayek DiMA talef w tkhachni f rasek for nothing" . It hurts cuz they have been doing this to me at home and now they are allowing others to do it outside! Like they are happily raising a woman that they won't only defend but not let her defend herself? I have no relationship so marriage isn't a chance to escape all this. This bad experience actually got me hating work KML I don't wanna deal with any men outside. Home is like hell it's okay if u cry it's okay if you don't eat it's okay if u get sick but definitely not okay to go outside to feel better or wear this and that even at home. If I quit this job money will be a problem cuz m used to provide for myself ( clothes and all needs except food ). So fuck tell me what to do . I feel so lost and weak . Wingless ... I just wish someone could like ... Idk what to say for real . Dunno if what I say makes any sense cuz I can hardly write anything. If you do get any of it let me hear from you. And for the record I have got masters in English applied linguistics. Graduated from Mentouri university. Lost a PhD scholarship 2 years ago .. and it still stings could that could have changed my life ... Saying this in case u felt like suggesting something to do .

Thanks for reading!