I never text or approach first, and here is why

Like the titles says, i never text first, ask to hangout, never approach anyone first or ever do the first step in anything.
Maybe this is also relatable to people who also do these things to others or for people to understand why we are the way we are.

I never had any bad intention of doing this, mostly this is because i dont really have any interest you if i dont know you. But even if i do, there is always this fear of being rejected.

In my whole entire life when i actually was the first to approach, it always turned into rejection or getting a responds only hours after. Till this das when I ask to hang out with ANYONE, theres always excuses or change of plan that they cant go.
And i always thought that they just didnt like me, but those same people complain about not me doing the first steps. My friends ask me why i never call or text first, because exactly these things happen with the same people.

Maybe it is misfortune, i was always anxious doing the first step because i always get dissapointed.

I hope people who do this to have the same problem as me! I dont even feel bad about being this distant, because i wont let myself getting treated like that even if its all pure coincidence.

(And dont think my friends dont like me, i know when somebody doesnt like me, i often get calls from them or inventations even private and it doesnt seem like they use me either…i cant think of a thing why id be useful LOL)