I Spent 5 Months Begging Him to Cut Contact With the Girl He Used to Hook Up With Now They’re Together

Guys I need some outside opinions because I don’t know if I’m overthinking or if I actually got played
I was with my ex from April 2021 to April 2023 and the relationship was completely one sided I was always the one putting in effort while he barely gave me time attention or care Whenever I brought it up he blamed me instead and that’s why we kept fighting
Even after the breakup he kept saying he still loved me and wanted to meet but always refused to get back together I finally blocked him this March
Before dating me he had hooked up with three of his female friends My only boundary was that I wasn’t comfortable with him staying in contact with women he had a sexual history with He argued with me for almost five months saying I didn’t trust him and that staying friends with former FWB was normal Eventually he deleted their numbers but never blocked them Since we were long distance I never knew if he actually cut contact
He also hated me touching his phone so I stopped checking it just to avoid arguments.
I never checked his social media during our relationship or even after we broke up because I trusted what he told me. A few weeks ago I noticed he had blocked the fake account I used to stalk him from So I checked from another account and found out he had gone on a trip to Rishikesh with Harshita the same girl he had his first FWB relationship with before me Just the two of them
Then I started noticing things that made my heart sink Matching 🧿❤️ emojis on each other’s posts Sweet flirty comments Cute captions The same emojis in their trip highlights She was driving his car posting songs with his name and I even found another account where they only followed each other He follows her from every account he has including Facebook and likes almost everything she posts It honestly looks like they’re together
What broke me wasn’t that he moved on I know people move on What broke me was realizing he was capable of doing all these things just not for me
When I was his girlfriend he wouldn’t even like my posts Forget cute comments He never took me on a trip Never bought me flowers Not even a ₹10 rose We had a special emoji that we promised we’d never use with anyone else and now I see him sharing the same kind of things with her
I spent five months crying begging him to cut contact with this girl He made me feel toxic insecure and controlling for asking for that one boundary Now I’m gone and she’s still there It makes me wonder if he ever really stopped talking to her or if I was just made to believe that he did
I know he has every right to date whoever he wants after a breakup That’s not what hurts What hurts is feeling like I was fighting for something that maybe I had already lost without even knowing
I don’t know if this was emotional cheating or if I was simply manipulated into accepting less than I deserved But I can’t stop thinking about it and it’s breaking my heart all over again.