Multiple Real Events plus false memory ocd issues

Long Story short, I have struggled with addiction for a long period of time, during these periods of addiction I engaged in behaviors that I am not proud and am also not fully sure even occured. I am terrified because while I would never even commit any of these behaviors and have developed an intense aversion to them, my brain will not shut up about it. From what I know these behavior have not harmed anyone but myself and I even confessed to them in not full detail to friends which had mixed responses. I also have other real events that pop up the frustrating part being when they do pop up and I confess they go away and another one takes it place. Some of these events I can't even remember perfect and it feels like I'm watching through a haze. It's also coming as things are changing in a personal relationship in my life. I'm currently looking to find a therapist in the country I'm in. Is this normal for real event and false memory?