​I don't know what is wrong with me but it's hard

​I don't know what is wrong with me but it is hard for me. I have always heard another voice which before was just there but didn't affect me in any way, but at one moment in my life it started encouraging me to harm myself or people around me. And at random moments I see pictures where I harm everyone or myself and it mixes with reality. It screams, doesn't calm down, and when I break down it takes control over me and tries to harm someone. I could tell more but it's hard for me to write because I have dyslexia and dysgraphia. And I am already working with psychologists and psychotherapists and I know what it costs. Thank you for your attention.